OH HEY, MANTI

Holy cow. Satan is so real. And he is using every once of power that he has to lead us away from the Gospel. But the Lord will always have more power than him & will run to our aid whenever we need it.

These last few weeks have been crazy-- and not like crazy busy, but like crazy emotional. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster, some days I'm so excited & can't stop talking about my mission, but other days I dread going on because I feel so unprepared & unworthy.

I know that every missionary goes through this. I know I'm not alone with my feelings. & I know that all of these doubts are coming from Satan. The Lord would never want one of his children to feel like they aren't good enough or worthy for His blessings.

Satan is trying with all of his might to keep us from preaching the Gospel-- BECAUSE HE KNOWS IT'S TRUE & he knows the power that the Holy Spirit has to bear witness of the truthfulness of the Gospel.

I have been preparing to enter the temple for the last month or so & I have been slightly (ok way more than just slightly) been freaking out. I felt like my testimony wasn't strong enough & I wasn't pure enough to enter into the Lord's House.

I had my temple recommend interview on Sunday & I knew that before then I needed to decide if I was ready. So I drove to the St George Temple & just read my scriptures, prayed, & begged the Lord to show me that I am ready. I didn't get my answer that night though, so going into church the next day I was terrified. But I had my Bishop's interview & I felt fine, then I had my interview by the Stake President & that's when I got my answer.

(this is the St George Temple btw)

As he was asking the standard worthiness questions I felt the spirit so strongly that I started to tear up. I never (like seriously ever) cry in front of other people, so this was so crazy to me & I got so embarrassed at first.

Then he offered to teach me some important things about the temple & wow. Going through the temple is so special & with it comes so many blessings. I left my interview with him with an even firmer testimony of temples & an overwhelming desire to enter the Lord's house.

SO HERE I AM. Sitting in a hotel room just outside of Manti, UT with my parents, waiting to go through the temple in less than  24 hours. (holy cow!!!)